Inspiration or Truth...

Some say they love my writing style.
That it keeps them interested.
They want to read on to see what's next.

While others are hurt by my words.
They find it sorrowful.
Sad, disappointing, and at times mean.

What exactly am i trying to accomplish with my writing? I have a blog soley dedicated to my God and His word. And then this one for random thoughts. Thoughts that range from funny things to deep rooted pain, and everything in between. But what's the point? What am i aiming at? Am i trying to inspire those who may find inspiration. Or am i trying to hurt the ones who get hurt.

I wish i had a simple answer. Truth is, i write because i have to. There is not one person alive or dead, that knows me, or understands me. There used to be one. Yeah there was one who did. Until they gave up. Leaving me with these thoughts...words, and these feelings. These three come at me so fast and so strong, that it's hard to keep 'em straight. Nothing truly makes sense anymore. Not a damn thing.

So, to those I'm bringing inspiration i say, I'm glad. For those that find themselves 'not alone' after reading my writing, i say, you aren't alone. And for those that are hurt by my writing i say, I'm sorry, and join the club. I too am hurting while i write.

As i write to get the thoughts, words, and these feelings out. I write because i must. It's my only friend. It's my only outlet. It's mine...

I said to someone this morning that, "Love with a person is an illusion. It isn't real. It isn't forever. There is only one love that's eternal. God's love for us. And we take that for granted daily."

Inspiration or truth or hurt...i write because i think it's the only way i won't go mad.