Holding on to you...

Though you want to leave I hold on to you.

I say it's for you.
Until you are able.
Till you're stable.

But it's for me. I know.
To be able to pretend.
Pretend that the constant hurt isn't there.
It isn't real.
Make believe a relationship that's long gone.
Tell myself we'll sit in the same room, watch a movie and laugh together.
Just how we used to.

But alas, holding on to you is the same as holding on to sand with your bare hands. Like grabbing the wind with your fingers. Just as reaching out to grab on...and finding you not there.

As desperately as i hold on...the farther the distance.

Tears of sorrow...
Pain of regret...
Loss of love...